l'imagination enroute le monde

Kiss Me, Bella's Curse

Wed, 10 Apr 2013 08:38:00 -0400

Sun is rising, birds are flying, clouds are forming and the morning kisses Taureau. Her golden brown crowning glory is swaying on a windy weather, her ochre-smeared irises with curly lashes are shining with the sunlight, her pinkish lips perfectly painted by make-up artist and her model-esque figure, and she can eat haute couture for breakfast. I have seen a beauty that compares to no one. I slowly uttered. “ I want her, she truly fazes me.” One fine afternoon, on a cab I sat; I find her sitting next to me heading in the vicinity of Manille. We were talking, drinking, and laughing endlessly. As I was looking at her, I suddenly caught myself liking her. She had too much alcohol and she was inebriated. I was, too. Bella’s curse is starting to have an effect on us. Six days later, we meet again. Out of spontaneity, I told her I like her and the feelings are mutual. Impeccable smiles were drawn on our face. We started hanging out, getting to know each other and having fun. I knew back then, I will really fall for her. I was scared, I was so scared that I have to build walls around me. Her mind is filled with wonder, she can’t think straight. She was confused. She had no place to stand. I have an irrational feeling of falling. I always refuse to be happy. I keep on running, running endlessly and I don’t know where else to find my way. I stopped and listen to the whispers of the wind. My feelings, they were begging to be free. I let my heart decide and refuse to convince myself that it is all in my destructive mind. Bella’s curse succeeded and my heart wins. I had no strength to build up my walls again; the only thing my strength can build is a bridge. I was about to cross the bridge and suddenly the sky turns grey. My fear is stopping me from walking; I stop and look into the distance. And my heart whispers, “No matter how far the distance is, you have to keep going.” I ask myself “Fear, when will you ever cease?” Lightning strike and I’ve come to my senses; my fear, they are all illusions. I started walking and you’ve been patiently waiting for me. I’ve reached the end of the bridge and I found myself in happiness. My stomach fills up with butterflies. My heart gives me the strongest beat and; my eyes they were shining brighter than the stars. And each time we got too close, I am always taking one step forward, two steps back. I am always afraid, scared, and lost. There’s that voice in my heart that won’t stop, it won’t stop from talking. I got out of bed every morning hearing the same voice. It keeps on haunting me. Then, I am running away again. But fate keeps us pulling back together. And circumstances kept us apart. I stood up with courage and confessed the feeling I could no longer deny. The feeling I was scared to show is love. I’m afraid of getting too close to someone  because I’m scared to get hurt. But that did not matter. I took the risk and it is, indeed, an endless feeling of happiness. And then I closed my eyes and fell asleep. I was dreaming. Dreaming about Taureau. I’m whispering something to her. If my memory serves me correctly, I whispered to her. “ I can’t promise you a fairytale-like relationship but I can make our relationship worth the fight. I can’t promise to be with you forever but I can treasure every moment with you. Things go wrong but we will always grasp our time to make things work. I could tell you everyday how much I love you and I will not love anyone but you. You light up my life in every possible way. And you’ve pushed every black cloud dangling over my head away. I am yours, of that you can always be certain. I will try my best to make you smile. I will try my hardest not to make you sad or even shed a tear for me. You are all the things I have ever needed or wanted. You will always have me. Always will. I want us to last, no matter how hard the situation is, and no matter what comes between us. I want to be with you always or forever. I don’t know which one is longer. But I am always staying with you until forever. I love you and I will always do.” I woke up from a dream. I uttered “It was not just a dream, that is everything thing how I feel for her.” I smiled spontaneously and continue to fall for her deeply. And now, she is reading my story and I know she is smiling spontaneously, too. :)

You are my star when darkness arrives. My sun that shines bright after the dawn. My rainbow after...

Mon, 31 Dec 2012 03:21:24 -0500

You are my star when darkness arrives. My sun that shines bright after the dawn. My rainbow after every rain. My God-given shooting star.. with an infinite wish. And without a doubt.. I know you are my universe.

I am about to enter a more harder level of the course I’ve pursued. I’ll be experiencing...

Sun, 10 Jun 2012 06:54:00 -0400

I am about to enter a more harder level of the course I’ve pursued. I’ll be experiencing classes at times where the sun doesn’t shine bright anymore. Countless sleepless nights, no more social life. Classes resume on Wednesday and I could die from sadness now. I would love to avoid the agony from returning to school after enjoying my 3 weeks of vacation. I have been thinking about this lately how am I going to survive this school year. Just hearing helpful advice from my friends was an enormous kindness for me. I vaguely wondered how the hell on earth did they manage to study everyday? Studying different medical term is not an easy thing to do, it is a skill. Which I was completely devastated to learn. I was doomed how studious my friends are. With 5 majors, I just can’t stand the stress over school! I’m gonna be bombarded with big piles of school work. The thing is, I always had problem with procrastination. And honestly there is no room for that, now. I will try to study as hard as I can. I’m not gonna give up easily. I will try really hard!!!

State of Insecurities

Fri, 08 Jun 2012 08:56:17 -0400

I wish I had longer legs, bigger boobs, flat tummy, an impeccable smile, longer lashes, attractive eyes and the insecurity list goes on. I look at the mirror and I’ve noticed my flaws in every detail. I felt insecure, unsatisfied and unhappy. I was bitterly disappointed with my whole looks. It slowly kills me and constructive criticism is trying to control my mind. But no, I stood up and have never let my insecurities reign over my real beauty. I will never kneel on the ground and just disappear. I am not alone; we all have something we despise about our self.

Our biggest problem is the society; they always try to bend us over just to be someone else. The perceptions of beauty nowadays, are beyond hilarious. They expect you to be white, thin, big-breasted modelesque beauty. And this is by far the most annoying standard of people I have ever heard of. If you do not have the aforementioned characteristics then we’re sure as hell you are not pretty. Shallow it is. Then, misunderstanding of beauty occurs. Ladies, never let this concept run over your life and destroy your self-esteem and beauty.

You can never run away from criticism and insecurities. But you can always change your mindset about your concept of beauty. Embrace your imperfections and be comfortable with it. Feeling good and looking good is about turning negative into positive. Screw what others think! Break the bad habits and let go of your insecurities. It kills all the beautiful. So please, never be a victim.

When someone says you are beautiful. Stop wondering what exactly they see in you. You, however are blinded with your insecurities which stops you from seeing the real beauty in you. Stop suffering from self-loathing and insecurity. Time to build that confidence up. Stop spending a chunk of your life trying to please others.

Forgotten Feelings

Thu, 07 Jun 2012 10:55:00 -0400

Unsaid thoughts. Forgotten feelings and.. memories still lingers on my mind. I remember when I was foolishly in loved with him and seeing him really makes my day. I was thinking we were really meant for each other. But one day, everything started to fall apart as if the world begins to crash. Questions were screaming on my mind and started to pile up. And my heart is always crying in pain and it feels like it will never end. I lay on the floor and close my eyes for a minute and I solemnly asked myself do I really deserve to deal with this breath-taking pain? I started to cry really hard and I was on the verge of killing myself. A betrayal that even death can’t accept. He secretly has fallen in love with another girl and he decided to end our relationship. I never see it coming.. I was really blinded with my emotions. Helplessly.. I decided to leave the memories behind. I genuinely know he won’t chase me and whenever I see him I always get the same feeling but it wasn’t the same as before. It is slowly fading and I begin not to love him too. Unsaid thoughts will always remain clandestine and forgotten feelings will open a new door to a fairytale story or a blistered love.

Finding True Love

Thu, 07 Jun 2012 09:03:55 -0400

There’s a point in our life when you know who stays forever, and who’s just fooling around. Life hands you a chance. and you have to choose wisely. Happiness is not eveything in love. You have to find someone who will appreciate and love you, who will be there unconditionally, who will not waste her time asking for you to change, who will tightly hug your imperfection, and by that you found true love. Don’t ask everyone who to choose.. It is about you being happy and not getting hurt. In the end, your choice in life will be the only thing that matters.

One Day, Three Autumns

Wed, 06 Jun 2012 11:27:00 -0400

This was supposed to be my monologue for our Speech class but I later find out that we were not allowed to make our own. Before anyone asks the title is a Chinese idiom that is used when you miss someone.

It was a cold and humid June afternoon. I met a guy with an unfamiliar face at the corridor. We smiled at each other in a minute or two. Who would have thought that could be the start of a new relationship? We started to hang out and feelings started to grow. Everything was so magical. I spent random days with him, watching his favorite shows, which I really don’t like. Eating together and asking about each other’s day. Telling stories and started to giggle together. And yes, we were genuinely happy. As cliché as it sounds, every time I see him butterflies in my stomach starts to dance, flapping their colorful wings as my heart skip a beat. I didn’t realize that the moment I fell in love with him, it was already falling apart. It happened so slowly that I didn’t see it coming. We’ve faced the most difficult predicament in life. We tried everything we could to fix things up but I guess it was not enough. I promise to myself that I’m not giving up and I will be strong for him. I loved him so much and seeing him go away would really break my heart. We’ve fought all the time and we rarely agreed on anything. Indifferences were the sole reason of every fight. And in the world of pride, understanding never existed. The efforts to clear things up are not worth it anymore. He suddenly stops trying and leave me without any warnings or goodbyes. I did everything I could to stop him, but I kept on being rejected. I did my part and I got tired from chasing him. So I let him go away. I’ve never heard anything from him. I wanted to talk to him and make things right between us. But I was too late he passed away already. I’m left with your memories. I will always remember the time we’ve shared together. My feelings for you will always be the same. I will always miss you. Our memories together will always have a special place in my heart. Part of me literally died, I felt so incomplete. But I guess I have to move on. And start living my life again. Learn to live life without you in it. I could eagerly and with a big dose of relief picture life without you. I miss you so much, it feels like one day apart seems like three years have passed.

The Obligatory First Post!!!

Tue, 05 Jun 2012 10:03:00 -0400

You can really tell how a complete noob starts with an uncreative obligatory post on Tumblr. Truth be told, I could not decide what my first post would be or how interesting it would turn out. At this point, I am a self-proclaimed blogger with no number of readers and that no one really cares about this post. I find myself stupid typing this to no one. And yes.. I was warned; the first post is really the difficult to write. Just to break the ice. I am brutally honest of being sorely lacking of originality. And that I have to follow the footsteps of some blogger who happens to start their mandatory first post with an introduction about themselves. Yeah, I am giving you a hint and it is like I’m the new kid in school that I have to introduce myself and to make friends with God knows who.

Hello! I am Rumi Ine. I’m no longer a teeny bopper and that makes me a 20. I like music, reading, and little pretty things. I talk a lot. I, sometimes recklessly spend money on foods. I have an unhealthy obsession with it. I always try to eat at something new and try to explore every food on the menu. But no, I am not a self-proclaimed Food Enthusiast. I like staying at Fully Booked just to read countless of recipes. Does it make me cool now? I like vegging out on couch and watch Lifestyle Channel. Ironically, I do not know how to cook. Please don’t judge.

I like to write. But I honestly can’t say I’m good at it. Mostly people admire me for my creative writing. I like writing quotes, too. I love reading personal blog. It helps me to grow as a better person. I like learning through other people’s experience. Reading their rants, embracing their agony makes my imagination flow smoothly and goes wild beyond the earth core.

If you want to know more about me, I suggest you stay tuned and wander over my whole journey on Tumblr. Expect to see some post about my personal life, technology(specifically Apple), and my self-pretentious writings in love.

If you do happen to come across this, I would like to say hello and excuse me for my not so impressive first post. I hope you enjoy reading! :)